Currents

We are empty nesters. It's odd. It's exciting. It's sad. It's a celebration. It has left me a bit off center as I have defined myself in my personal life as Rachael's mom.  I have signed notes to teachers, to other parents with my name and in parenthesis (Rachael's Mom).  Michael and I were cooking dinner on Tuesday and I said I really miss her today.  He said I miss her too, she is where she needs to be, she needs to find her own way. I told him I went in her room and it felt weird, as if she would be home any minute.  He said even when she comes home, it will be different. Not the same as having her here everyday. We are parents of an adult. This is how it is supposed to be, this is a good thing. He also added (because he is Michael), she better pass all of her classes.   I have been mulling this over the last couple of days.  I am enjoying the empty nest, exploring being a couple, thinking about taking a photography class, taking a trip with Michael, but like Rachael, perhaps I am still finding my way.