In less than a month Rachael will graduate from High School (fingers crossed on Calculus), the first of the festivities was a Mad Hatters Tea her and her best friend Haley hosted for their friends. It was the first time it felt real to me, my daughter graduating, moving on to the next stage and leaving Michael and I behind. It hit me and all of sudden I wanted to bawl my eyes out. The last couple of years have been a real trial for Rach and I, as we are often oil and water. I am a bulldozer( a well meaning one) and Rachael a concrete pier that can not be moved no matter what gear you have the damn thing in. Rachael is like a well rooted tree that if you cut it down its roots will give rise to a new tree 5 feet away. Rachael looks like me but is more like her Dad in personality; we do share 2 traits-what I call the P traits. Perverseness and perseverance, and in that lies the problem. I find myself wanting to simultaneously hold her here and push her out of the nest, if only we were a bit more like birds; where instinct and not sentiment tells us when to let go. I am excited for her choices and each day brings us closer to graduation and her to the next stage of her journey. Hopefully I can learn to put the bulldozer in idle gear.
2 comments:
Brenda,
Rachael does look a lot like you, so pretty and I love her colorful dress. I know this must be a difficult time, letting your child go. I've missed you and your poetry, so it's good to hear you've written some new ones.
Take care,
Sandy
Hi Sandy,
Rachael does look like me, but don't tell her-she likes to think she looks more like her Aunt Kim and Aunt Judi, then Mike and I. I am sad she will be so far away next year, but it is time for the chick to leave the nest, and I am coming to terms. I will send you some poems I wrote for NaPo-Hope you are mostly groovy and taking care of Sandy
:) brenda
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