I am home from Cancun and I had a wonderful time with the girls and leaders of Troop 1900. The girls were a joy as traveling companions and my daughter and I re-connected for the first time in a long while in a positive way. I snorkeled for the first time and I realized that it is something I would like to do more often, as well as perhaps learn to Scuba-dive. I love the beauty of the ocean, the diversity of life, the seamless co-existence of species--a sense of a grand design at work, and perhaps an acknowledgement of the transient nature of life. I also realized that I no longer relax easily, that it took me nearly 3 days to completely decompress from the rigor of my daily life. I found that even though I was having a wonderful time, that I could not put aside an underlying sense of angst that I left something important undone. Truth is I realized as I swam with the swim turtles, hiked with the girls, and visited Mayan ruins, is that I am not important. I am merely a cog in the chain. In the grand scheme of things it is not the individual but humanity that preserves. I have always been comfortable in my own insignificance, perhaps I had simply forgot. I am relearning.
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